Be Someone

I want to be someone
To someone
For someone

But I’ll never be someone
To someone
For someone

For it is really
For me
That I want to be someone
For someone

For me

I’ll never be someone
To someone
For someone
Until it really is
For someone
And not

For me

At Least for a While

Do you like me?
I hope you do
Say you like me
Make my living justified

Do you want me?
I hope you do
Say you want me
Make my living worthwhile

I want to be liked
I want to be wanted
Otherwise
Life is without meaning

Like me.
Want me.
Not forever.
I’ll settle for just the now

I’ll find someone else
When you are gone
I’ll find another
To make me myself

Until then
Don’t go
I love you
My love is unique

I’ll give you what you want
You give me what I want
And then we’ll be happy
At least for a while

At least for a while

Another Game of Checkers

Checkers
Just one more game

Is it right?
Don’t ask
Everyone does it
Everyone has time to relax
I need it
I need to mellow out
To get away
From the daily grind
And just play
Another game of checkers

What?
Other people hurting?
People starving?
People dying?
Wars being fought
Suffering
For what?
My freedom
To play
Another game of checkers

Don’t remind me
That I have some obligation
To live
That I owe someone something
It is not my own
It was given to me
This time
This breath
This life

And I just want to play
Another game of checkers

What are the other options?
To change?
Do do something meaningful?
With my life?
Its too late, isn’t it?
What do I have to offer?

Can’t I just forget about everything
And just play
Another game of checkers?

Oops.
My turn.
Gotta go.

Rock on.

Anger in the Grocery Store

What bread shall I buy?
White?
Wheat?
Rye?
Twelve grain?
10 grain?
No grain?
One loaf?
Three for the price of two?
What bread shall I buy.

I am the bread of life.

I just got paid.
Gonna have a nice meal.
Steak?
Burritos?
Chicken?
Burgers?
BBQ?
Nothing wrong with eating well.
Hunger is meant to be satisfied
I am made to eat.
Food is meant to be enjoyed

Don’t work for food that spoils

Eat
Work
Sleep
Eat
Work
Sleep
Friday comes
Saturday relaxing
Kicking my feet up
Sunday comes
Time to go to church
Take a ‘sabbath’
Eat
Work
Sleep
Times five
Friday night comes

I am the bread of life
Don’t work for food that spoils

I made a living
I supported my family
Time to retire
Drive around in my RV
See some of the world
Spend my time collecting sea shells
That’s the life
This is what I worked so hard for
So many years of work

End with boredom
And then I die

Never understanding
What I should have learned
In that grocery store
Looking at all of that bread
So many choices

I am the bread of life
Don’t work for food that spoils

Which break will satisfy me today?

So many choices
I’ll try something new

Maybe this time it will satisfy
Once
Just once
That’s all I ask
That it would satisfy
Just once
Before I die

All I Know

Hi Lord
Its me
I am not sure what to pray
Big decisions need to be made
My life course is being decided
And I need your wisdom
I need to hear your voice
To be sure of your will
To have it all laid out
I wish I were closer
That I could hear your voice
And know it were you
But I feel lost
The only thing I know
Is that you are love
And that you love me
That is all I know
And that is enough

I wait here patiently
My life is yours
It is your will I want
It is you alone I want to please
It is you who brings me joy
It is when I lift you up
That I am really me
It is when I love you
and live for you alone
That life is full
This I know
This I want
I wait for you
Speak to me
I need to know more
Or do I?
I know the key
I know what gives life
I know who gives life
It is you
And you are love
Thank you
It is you
And I love you
And the only thing I know
Is that you are love

Afraid to Think

TV
Video games
Movies
The mall
Places to go
People to see
Things to buy

Keep me busy

I hate myself
And if you leave me alone
I might have to think

Suicide sucks
Keep me busy
And then I’ll live

Sort of

Absolutely

If
There is no such thing
As absolute truth
If everything is relative
Then you cannot logically say
That everything is relative
And that there is absolutely no such thing
As absolute truth
That is just your opinion
And you cannot say anything
Absolutely